Lord I'm tired

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give, that's my everything

Lord didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

Chorus:
And this is all that I can say right now, i know it's not much.
But this is all that I can give, yeah that's my everything.
This is all that I can say right now [right now], i know it's not much.
But this is all that I can give, yeah that's my everything.

Bridge:
I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

And this is all
This is all that I can say right now, oh i know its not much.
But this is all that I can give, yeah that's my everything.
This is all that I can say right now [right now], i know it's not much.
But this is all that I can give, yeah that's my everything.
This is all that I can say right now, oh i know it's not much.
But this is all that I can give, yeah that's my everything..
yeah that's my everything..
yeah that's my everything..
everything...



I'm at this place where I feel so completely out of it.
I don't have much to give God, I don't even really have much to say to him...
I don't why.


..God, I'm sorry I don't run to you first.
I know you love me more than anything and more than anyone ever has, yet your not the first on my mind.
I'm sorry I get angry when you choose silence..
maybe it's that your teaching me to listen more.
I'm sorry for treating others you love with jealousy and hate.
That is not your plan or your desire.
I want to glorify you, not me, and especially not the enemy.
..but I do, and I'm sorry.

..Thank you for loving me.
Thank you that I can come to you with these ridiculous acts that so contradict your love and you count them as forgotten.
You love me despite my bitterness and anger.
I can't even imagine that kind of love, it doesn't exist like that here on earth...
help me understand how deep your love is.
Help me forget about what everyone else is saying about you, let me hear what your saying.

Yuck

I have just been in the worst of moods lately.

when will this stop?

Yay!

There is a small possibility I will be able to go home for Thanksgiving!
Praise the Lord!
I so hope I can make it home for those short few days.

I miss everyone so stinkin much.

We'll see if money starts falling from the sky.
Anyways, I have a very busy week ahead. I love how professors think it's a good idea to assign everything all at once. I'm pretty sure they all get together on the weekends and pick a week to torture us and send us into a minor depression with all their due dates.
Funny guys, funny.

I'm loving the weather right now.
40's in the morning.
60's during the day.
Clear skies :)
Fall is beautiful in Washington. I would give anything to be laying out at the beach though. I smelt the smell of tanning oil yesterday and just about cried. Oh how I love that smell.
But Fall is really pretty here, I promise you. ;)